Archive | February, 2013
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Reminder

28 Feb

Needed This As A Reminder Today

Adaptation

28 Feb

Once again my life was turned upside down. All the plans and everything I’ve been working hard, (the past two years) to achieve changed completely. So back to square one I go. I Don’t even really get upset anymore because if there’s one trait I have in spades it’s the ability to adapt.

Everyone more or less has the ability to adapt I mean it’s Darwin’s theory of, “Only the fittest will survive” only in a modern context. We don’t have to worry about being the strongest anymore but rather how we can adapt to an ever changing world. How can you sell yourself in order to get a job in high demand or how can you make ends meet every month etc.

I’m not going to go in hibernation mode because I’ve been dealt one of life’s nasty curveballs. Instead, I’m going to try and find the damn silver-lining and keep moving forward.

We may not have control over things that happen in life, but we do have control over how we react to them.

I create my future.

Hungry Heart

25 Feb

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Love has the power to heal and also the power to destroy. When you love someone you make yourself vunerable. You give yourself to another person in the hope that they will be able to see your worth and treat you accordingly.

In life sometimes you experience different kinds of love. Your first love is usually an all consuming love. You haven’t learned moderation is key in a relationship, yet. You’re helpless to this feeling that devours your soul and leaves you wanting more. Separation if only for short a period of time leaves you desolate and anxious to be with that other person. They feel like solid ground in a world of constant change. The known in a vastness of unknown.

As you grow older your love changes. You stop believeing in the fairytale love you heard about as a child. You accept your imperfections and realize that love has taken on a differnt meaning. One of companionship. Another person bearing witness to all of life’s triumphs and tragedies. You relish your alone time and your love matures in the fact that it is more independent. You find you can be happy on your own and that the love you have is not intoxicating and ravaging as it was before. Not to say it lacks passion or rigor but it is not the dibilitaing kind of your first. You still feel vunerable you still have that fear of giving everything and it not measuring up but you also have found your own identity in the love you feel. You find that even though you’ve suffered at the hand of fickle love, you have so much still left to give.

Home Is A Feeling

25 Feb

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I miss my Grandparents. I miss the smell of the wood stove burning, that smoky smell that reminds me of my childhood. Days spent exploring the outdoors in southern Missouri. The freshly baked Bread that my Grandmother would make. How my sisters and I would go for long walks to the lake. Soaking in the rays of a relentless summer sun. Everything was quiet. All the old books and the collectables my Grandmother had neatly arranged in the glass cabinets.

Living in a different country has opened my eyes to many things. It also has given me a appreciation for where I come from. I am a small town girl trying to make a  life in the big city. I sometimes long to see the wide open spaces of where I once considered home to be. The city hasn’t become home for me. In fact, it isn’t even a place to me anymore. It is a feeling. It is a state of mind in which I feel at ease. It is the laughter of my nieces ringing in my ears, the peaceful sound of waves crashing against the shore while I’m away on vacation, it is seeing a stranger on the street smile at me, it is the unconditional love of my sisters, it is the company of my friends on a friday night drinking a glass of wine together, it is when I’m dreaming at night and I see the people I miss most, it is remembering how far I have come and looking towards the future with a heart full of hope.

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Center Of The Universe

25 Feb

Center Of The Universe

A Small Blessing

25 Feb
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

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Such A Babe

25 Feb

Such A Babe

Sean Connery ca. his Bond days